Eyedea Tribute
by Albee Yap aka DJ Whocares
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Purchase this album and all proceeds will go to Eyedea's family!
Micheal Larsen (November 9, 1981 – October 16, 2010), known by his stage name Eyedea, was a well-known freestyle battle champion and underground rapper.
A 50-trk tribute mixtape with stories from Slug, Brother Ali, Mr. Wiggles (RSC), Kevin Beacham, Psalm One, Evidence (Dilated Peoples), POS, Grouch (Living Legends), & more. This is for you Micheal Larsen. Thank you for blessing the world with your talent! You definitely left peace in pieces! Respect!
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- Track Name: 2 Sky Diver (mix)
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Lyrics:
Use your fist please don't knock
My loose teeth are yours to take
Cuddling our new found freedom in keeping
Our eyes open without being awake
Kiss my ear the faint still taunts
Children rejoice
"Once hero, now dead"
One last time I'm really hurting
Just a little taste to take off the edge
I rummage through old love letters
And photographs in a desperate reach for
A clue into who I am
With only the distant past as reference
I fail to feel any connection
To the bones under my skin
You can cry but you're still getting sterilized
You can show the sun how to come if you know the sky
He'll let you make a mess if you keep him high
It was a good shoot
The messenger deserved to die for his lies
Make it hurt scare me straight
Cursed is he who can't burn by fire
We're all falling show me feeling
I'm your designated diver
I can see the cuts on your mind
Your mother made yours
Mine made mine, I know you'd rather
Be sad than stupid
Genius by day, Junkie by night
By the grace of breeze I never scraped a knee
That didn't help me see bleeding isn't what it seems
Let it steam let it steep 'till it screams
"Finally free!" then you better leave
I bet that she's gonna kill the king
Doctored wound perfect numb
13 billion years in the making
black hole at the center of our galaxy
we're still suffering we're still aching
the sanctuary is closed for repairs
I used God's guide to pet a maniac the nice way
Bad habits make for good memories
I'm good at being at the wrong time in the right place
Crust and clots at the corners of her mouth
Eyes white like yours,
But completely different somehow
I caught her post dose
looking like a ghost
Cheeks rosed from the flush of fluid
So familiar to us now
Legs folded, the predators pray
There's no messiah that wasn't a slave to it's brain
If I could do with nails, what you do with words,
there'd be one more crucifixion, one less open door
Use my fist but I won't knock
Break it open
Itch me sober
Trust me
We'll get out of this alive
Now take my hand it's almost over
I apologize for lying about smiling
I'm a frightened little cat that learned to act like a lion
While leviathans beach in the grip of their patience
I'm driving this cheap pirate
ship to the pavement
By the grace of breeze I never scraped a knee
That didn't help me see nothing's really what it seems
Let it steam let it steep 'till it screams
"Finally free!" then you better leave
I'm aiming right for the head of the king. - Track Name: 3 Smile (mix)
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Lyrics:
A prince in practice moans for the attention that he wants
but most his town wont even dignify his ignorance with a response
left to a crowded foster home by a 15 year old mom
never been held in anyones arms when you've never been moved its really hard to move on
A young saleswoman sets up shop on the sunset
she'll make your wildest dreams come true at a price you wont forget
a sadly married set of alibis no harm no regret
hoping they meet an angel in bed that could wrestle the devil right out of their heads
The city runs fast, no one has time to sit with themselves, time to look into our pain
or see the same despair in everyone else
its here, its there, its everywhere tears soak each card the dealers dealt
time taught me how see every second as heaven even though their perfectly disguised as hell
And I refuse to let past bruises cover the light
it aint all good, but its all good enough, so I know Im alright
agony is truth its our connection to the living I accept it as perfection and keep on existing in the
(chorus)
Now - I can only build if I tear the walls down
even if it breaks me I wont let it make me frown
Im falling but no matter how hard I hit the ground
I still smile (x2)
Ear to ear as if thats all Im here for
despite the wars founded by the rich, funded by the poor
kids barely 18 are dying so billionaires can make more
elsewhere hungry mothers watch their babies starve to death in a beat up shack on a dirt floor
The aged professor quotes freedoms without a path
now he dresses like a widow and preaches love is dead in every class
curiosity killed the cat and taught the dog and him how to act
and he burned his bridge to Jill so he tries to drown the guilt with a bottle of Jack
Self proclaimed rebels say we must oppose the system
you gotta take a stand, if your not against em' your with em'
signs read support the troops bring em' home no more innocent victims
but when a homeless veteran asks for spare change your to busy protesting to even listen
And Im no different I live in conflict and contradiction but it can be so beautiful
when I don't reject what lies within
It's beautiful the way agony connects us to the living
I think of the world when I hurt, and keep on existing in the
Now - I can only build if I tear the walls down
even if it breaks me I wont let it make me frown
im falling but no matter how hard I hit the ground
I still smile (repeat) - Track Name: 6 Paradise
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Lyrics:
What a beautiful world, so fragile and fertile
Pain filled the void when boy met girl
He’s a puppet to nature, one year later
Now so deeply and sickly in love it makes him hate her
The average romanticized American relationship
Sinks, capsized when either side becomes a slave to it
Conditioned, dependent, afraid to be alone
He needs that feeling that he can’t create all on his own
He despises the fact she has a life outside of him
It drives him crazy to think she’s not insanely consumed with him
Give her the guilt-trip and maybe she’ll quit living,
To stay behind his prison walls and lose all individualism
Well this is happiness, masochistic torture
Played by the decadent, craved of affection
The needle digs deep to push contentment through his bloodstream
And drown out hollow, the pothole of a junkie
If he could only hear her sing, he wouldn’t want to break her wings
But emptiness has such a warm, subtle sting
She makes up for what he lacks, trapped,
He can’t imagine life without someone like that
Chorus:
We’ve rediscovered the long-lost art of dying
Only the lonely resent angels for flying
Twisted, living off of each other’s sickness like parasites
This is paradise
We’ve rediscovered the long-lost art of dying
Only the lonely resent angels for flying
Addicted, afraid to take control of my own life
This is paradise
Verse 2:
What a beautiful world, emotionally destroyed
her became plural when girl met boy
Between several breakups and plenty relapses
Routine bred-comfort led to serious attachment
Now every once in a while she forgets to breathe
Terrified of losing him, paradise is misery
Too much faith in the life-saving knight in shining armour
Now her knight’s noticing the scars she can’t hide any longer
But they were her story way before he was
It was gross hope to think he could heal such deep cuts
At first it felt so right but after one too many fights,
He turned out that hallway light and all the wonder turned to spite
So they sleep in the same bed with guns to each others’ heads
Dead to romance, boiling the blood that painted roses red
Suffering from post-honeymoon disease, bleached through
His whole existence, she’ll die if he decides to leave
Addicted to the way she feels when they spend time together
Detouring the now in a childish attempt to find forever
Despite the fact they hold each other heart to heart
You can’t be that close to somebody without being so far apart
Chorus
Silence, the most obscure sound I’ve ever heard
Those lonely, giant spaces in between your every word
And maybe, I’m totally crazy for holding on but
Just cus I’m insane, don’t mean that I’m wrong
Now that you’re gone I can’t sleep at night
I barely even function right, my memory’s on overdrive
Too hungry and too cold to cry
Miss the companionship I once took for granted
The way you helped me manage, the partnership that vanished
But I don’t expect you to stay chained by the ankle,
There’s so much world to see so, fly free my angel
I’m dying without you, but it’s teaching me to live
Heaven ain’t something someone else can give
It’s all inside of me
Chorus
There’s so much world to see
What’s stopping me from flying free?
There's so much world to see
What's stopping you from flying free?
(Repeat to Fade) - Track Name: 8 A Murder of Memories (mix)
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Lyrics:
Sometimes gunfire is brighter than the sunshine
And sometimes a child's scream influences every dream
Sometimes we fool ourselves into thinking we've moved on
But no way, nohow, do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, nohow, do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, nohow, do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, nohow, do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, nohow, do we ever forget what we've seen
It's now twenty-five years later, he's on the brink of forty-three
Still searching for sanity, surveying the floor of his distorted sea
He rememebers high-school friends joking about the war
Never knew what mom was crying for (Never knew what mom was crying for)
The other piece that shines in his mind was a divine first love
Sewn-made, beauty, brown-eyed queen he left behind
He remembers holding her tight, watching the sunset at shore
Never knew what she was crying for (Never knew what she was crying for)
He got the letter in the mail by the middle of his summer
Wouldn't have had to go if it wasn't for his newborn brother
He was barely eighteen, murdering people even younger
And he still ducks and covers every time he hears the thunder
He still hears the screams, smells the flesh, tastes the death
Sees the blood, feels the pain, what's to gain, nothing's left
But the slug that remains in his right calf
The bullet laughs every time he cries, and it drives him mad
Trying to sleep, but the visions give him a cold sweat
The war's been over for two decades, but he still hasn't been home yet
And every day he waits and strains to supress his guilt
And forget the horror and the violence; the "kill or be killed"
Fists, they always clenched; teeth, they always grinding
Real life is lost and in a bottle he tries to find it
"It's not fair," he mumbles through a nightmare
Only in a fight for two years and wound up spending his whole life there
(Chorus)
He was face to face with the devil for the welfare of his country
Now he's straining to live but his conscience won't let him
It ain't flashbacks, you have to understand the tragedy, see
He left the war, but the war never left him, see
He left the war, but the war never left him, see
He left the war, but the war never left him, see
He left the war, but the war never left him, see
He left the war...
It's now twenty-five years later, he's on the edge of a park bench
He asked God for hope and found his source non-existant
He sits in the shadows, because the sun burns no more
Now he knows what mom was crying for (Now he knows what mom was crying for)
I used to watch old man in the park
The sights slowly drove fright through my heart
Wishing I could help but not knowing where to start
I'd walk away, curse the world, gush some love and curse some more
Now you know who I've been crying for (Now you know who I've been crying
for)
He threw his medals in the river but they sunk alone
Put shades on his eyes to hide it from the warzone in the sky
He tried to slit his wrists about a month ago
But he's seen so much death, he's scared to life of suicide
If there was only some way he could escape this penitentiary
Goals get bigger and figures it'll chase away his memory
But the dreams only worsen, the scenes almost burst in
He recalls how training took away his right to be a person
Put a gun in his hand, left him to die for the land
The plan was the murder of man (The plan was the murder of man)
Politicians have a dispute to decide to send in troops
But the truth is they just don't understand (They just don't understand)
Now he's running out of time, and running out of energy
But 'til the last day he will fight for the murder of his memories
And although he never got rid of his dog-tags
He still wishes they'd have sent his parents an American flag
(Chorus)
Sometimes gunfire is brighter than the sunshine
And sometimes a child's scream influences every dream
Sometimes we fool ourselves into thinking we've moved on
But no way, nohow, do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, nohow, do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, nohow, do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, nohow, do we ever forget what we've seen
No way, nohow, do we ever forget what we've seen - Track Name: 10 E and A Day (mix)
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Lyrics:
This is a big fuck you to anyone out there that hates us
it aint my fault you fail to recognize what great is
if you weren’t so caught up in who you dick ride
youd see the flaws of your so called generals
and crawl to this side
you misinterpret the purpose of what we do
plus you probably mad that we get our props
and no ones feelin you
but don’t tell me how to rip this microphone bitch
if your advice was so nice wont you apply it to your own shit
the truth is I can do what you cant
sellin 20 thousand units hand to hand
to the true fans
on top of that
freestyle and ull get served
on top of that
all your friends know my words
ive accomplished more than you will in ya whole life
by the time I was 18
never workin a 9 to 5
that’s the E and A theme
and it’s a must we constantly keep elevating
the hustle
the music the ethic
muscle the movements
the methods
whats wrong
you still don’t get it
still feel you’re so gifted
still think your sky has no limits
it takes a minute to get rid of the cynics
but now each piece is in its place
so you cant fuck with us
(and its suicide to battle this umm) x3
the genius supreme team is the E and A
believe that this year we recievin emcee and D.J. kinship
perceived as the most deviously seen in the media
remedial critics don’t give us love but we don’t need em to
it aint your weak reviews that keep people intrigued with us
they leave our show thinking what these kids do is unachievable
and they right
you never end your life
could do as much as we do with just 2 techs and a mic huh
I leave kids like Raymond oneill pissed
cus he knows without me aint no way hell make it in this record biz
how you advertise some shit I won and not mention me
fuck you and that ugly coat we goin ghetto gold this spring
and anyone that begs to differ wait until this hit ya
the illest scriptures killin listeners with the real elixir
for these top 40 blowjobs packaging a hit single
yall flaunt pussy so hard it gives the average kids dick tingles
but who can keep ya sick
with cuts to clot ya ego trip
beats that hit and speech that spits
raise a fist, throw a fit
its E and A day
2003 until forever
yall shoulda never let 2 motherfuckers like us get together
its on - Track Name: 11 Exhausted Love (mix)
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Lyrics:
I'm so goddamn tired
Can't tell if I'm done or just uninspired
And don't give me that you can be somebody speech
That ain't your place, let me be
I'm an example of a candle-lit life with electric relaxation
Brain trampled by devotion to remote-control channel changin'
Somethin' provoked the whole GLOBE to lower expectations
Damn, what's wrong with my generation?
We was the cream of the crop, but it seems we've been robbed
That's what happens when you trade in all your dreams for a job
And every day it gets less and less exciting
And I would make a difference but I'm busy fakin' this instead of tryin'
Change my shift from now to never and I'll pretend I'm fine
Why am I always stuck at the shitty end of the assembly line?
I guess I'm built to be intoxicated with hope
Sometimes it's a journey, most of the time it's just a bad joke
And in my scrolls (?) of junk drawer, I can't organize
The first to come and last to leave will never be immortalized
This sort of life is completely overrated
I'm sick of being the only one I know who's trying to make it
So, right now I'm headin' home
Got Sounds of Nature Volume 1 in my headphones and half a bottle of Pretnazone
That's the reaction to an overdose of passion
Brainless, stagnant, ain't it magic?
[Chorus]
I never knew ambition could be so fuckin' disgusting
I earn a good commission but it makes me feel so ugly
I'm on some not even knowin' I'm an illuminatus (?)(this is right,illuminatus)
Just as long as playin' agent don't disruput my funeral's progress
I ain't changin' for you, I ain't reachin' for the sky
I would, if you would give me one good reason why I should even try
Cuz after a while this never-ending lame game of what's better could fracture your smile's main frame forever
It's so fun to be in love or so I've heard
The meaning has no feeling even though I understand the words
I used to try to make heaven right here on Earth
But that'll only happen if you find someone else to do the work
I'll be surprised when my psychosis turns out to keep the drive in focus while I hold the same blurred cloud as burnt out dope-heads
So for now my worthless counter-work has found a purpose
Every time a pound of dirt's produced I get my frown refurbished
2-for-1 specials if you order shoulder devils
Head swoll, runnin' outta petrol but I won't let go of this gas pedal til' I'm settled and they finally wet me with that sweet blind security
So insecure and messy
Mark today the day that dedication died, instead of sayin' goodbye I'm stayin', prayin' that I stay alive
Cuz even though I KNOW I hate to love you so much
I got no better place to go, that's why I always show up
Damn!
[Chrous] - Track Name: 13 The Many Faces of Oliver Hart (mix)
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Lyrics:
I'm here to break my own ball and chain
Holding the plight to be completely sane
Nothings to gain if image blocks the only chance for change
When I expand my range the world shares it's judges
But don't think munich defines my character
These songs ain't me, they're just documentations of momentary thoughts
Nothing's set in stone just because it's sold and bought
Your expectations need a catergory of placement
But a renaissance man sits nowhere particular
Every seat is vacant to a song writer, comedian, ??
actor, author, emcee, carpenter, producer, engineer, shit talker
Hustler, musician, architect, businessman
student of the scene and human being if you give a damn
No matter what side you see it's only one side
No matter how much you think it means, it's just one side
My depth is only as shallow as time and space is
This is just one of my many eternally changing... - Track Name: 14 The Dive Pt 1 (mix)
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Lyrics:
It starts out with a question. How much of it is real?
The skepticism sets in, and lessens your appeal
Next, you study conspiracy, develop some theories
And become extra wary of all your previous learned material
Your tolerence for stupidity degrades
Most of your friends seem to be trapped in the maze
You narrow your associates down to the few you can stand
And even they sometimes wonder what's going on in that head of yours
You study east and western philosophy, psychology, physics
You think a lot more, and start to question existence
You wonder about your nervous system's limits
You tamper with reality maps, and then ask hallucinogenic induced
"Who am I's? What am I? Am I forever?"
All information breathes in the shallow dark hells of never
You can see where it's leading. You wish you were dreaming
If the castle crumbles no one's there to put it back together
[Chorus]
Have you ever felt yourself slippin' away?
Where all you think about's your sanity, and how it decayed?
There's no place to run, no place to hide
You can't escape from inside, and you're losing your mind
You try to think of when it started, and ask yourself why
But each thought deepens the sickness and completes the desert dry
Fear feeds the derangement of the inner eye
With nothing left you find yourself falling to madness so you...
... cry to your god, and act normal to your peers
What if God ain't hearing you? That's your only fear
Each day you think more about your psychosis
No one but you can help you, and you know this
That's the craziest part of it all
In your rational mind, you only know two things for sure
One is that your totally nuts
And the other is that you're the only one with the cure
It doesn't make sense, it's not how you imagined
You never knew it could just happen
You thought it came from stress, suicide, a near death experience
War, drug trips, low pay ,carelessness
You've heard plenty of stories about schizophrenia
But never had evidence of one who thought himself mad
You're going crazy, and desperately reachin' for reason
But the strain to stay sane's your only demon; best believe it
[Chorus]
You finally realize that you've always lived in hell
No human model or metaphor can explain how you fell
The puzzle's alive, and it changes as you try to escape it
It created time and made it appear to pass by
You don't know what you think. You don't think what you know
You're a total lunatic, and afraid it's starting to show
Where do you go when your brain is your worst enemy?
The six hundred and sixty six foot tall bridge on seventh street?
You're scared. You're scared. Why are you so scared?
There'd be no problem if you didn't care
Now you've truly formed an opinion about heaven
It starts out with a question, and this is what it ends in
Now I know you've felt yourself slip away
Now all you think about's your sanity, and how it decayed
There's no place to run. No place to hide
You can't escape the fact that you've lost your mind
You can't erase your mistakes. There's no way to rewind
The harder you look, the harder it is to find
Fear feeds the derangement of the inner eye
With nothing left you find yourself falling to madness, so you dive
so you dive (repeated)
And with each foot you fall
the voice in your head starts to sound more and more like yours - Track Name: 15 How Eye One The Write Too Think (mix)
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Lyrics:
It took me a while to relize we were on the same page
I was getting tired of reading it aloud in different ways
I aint the only person thats traveled through this maze
Not really sure whether it was me or them that was craaaaazy
Digging a hole in every single system, lit the candle to envision
whats lost in this position, crossing out superstition
sitting in a time macheine. A bleeding mind dreams
of beating my esteem to give the crime scene shining bling.
Im no longer a boy scout... cause punching myself in the face
wont neccasarily get the voice out!
Thats something no one ever took the time to point out
but I had to learn to whisper before I could enjoy shouting
periodically I feel like I've wasted my breath
and all I've got to show for is paper stained ink
but I aint really trippin a the end of the day...
cause life is experiance and this is how eye won the write two think! - Track Name: 16 Walking (mix)
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Lyrics:
[Verse 1]
Sometimes it's best to give up the fight
All that really matters is I know that I'm right
I can't be following anyone else's ideal path of success
I pass up that stress, feel mad for the rest, gasping for breath
Trapped in my head, asking for less rations in death, passion is left
Ashes to dust...
Just consider the love of an antique pot on my window sill
My mask is my flesh my dream is to grow wings
And sing 'til freedom rings
I got a rhythm but I'm eager to unplug my speaker
And let my heart be my teacher
It's hard to tell where all this comes from
It's like my soul holds a song that eternity left undone
But it'll never be finished
That's the point
I got to get going
Thanks for the inspiration
[Hook]
I'm walking
Not cause I'm mad at you or anyone else
I'm walking
Walking until I find myself
[Bridge]
Sometimes, how close we get
From the way it gets
I run towards the rainbow
But when I get there it's gone
So next time there's a rainbow
I'm a run away from it
So when I turn around
I'll see it while it's strong
[Verse 2]
Now I don't care about my whereabouts
I'll clear it out, I got to go that's all I know
I'll hit the road and find my soul in the sin
They say there is no maybe please don't doubt
Conceive what you can be, infinite
That everything and anything anyway
I see your eyes and realize I need to cry
That you and I it's hard to hide
What's being lied so deep inside
Thanks for your help
But I won't find nothing better
In a world this beautiful
I'll be walking forever
[Hook]
I'm walking
Not cause I'm mad at you or anyone else
I'm walking
Walking until I find myself
[Verse 3]
Journey I don't expect nothing
But the un-expectable
The only thing I know for a fact
Is that I'll never know too much about myself
So I'm a keep learning
Cause I'm determined to find the pieces fire-burning
Turning these pages just as slow as I can
Reading every single word from the poet within
I float with the wind and stay content
Wherever it carries me
There was no beginning and there won't be an end
I'm just a piece of the galaxy
A seed in the soil
A stream of consciousness
And to the seasons I'm loyal
Don't take my movement personal
It's not that I don't dig you
But I can't be on the beach
Of your sea when it boils
And so I walk with the music
Because to me that's all that's real
Don't know where I'm going
Don't have a plan
I've been hearing instructions my whole life
And I still think walking away from the rainbow
Will make you more of a man
[Hook]
I'm walking
Not cause I'm mad at you or anyone else
I'm walking
Walking until I find myself
Speaking of walking, as I walked onto the set
The director was like, what the fuck you doing!
Glanced around and said, my fault I'm in the wrong movie - Track Name: 17 Bottle Dreams (mix)
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Lyrics:
Everyone knew she was a special young girl
From her neighbors to her teachers
Some labeled her a prodigy, others called her a genius
It was amazing the way she could play the violin
It made it hard for people to believe that she only ten
But behind every brilliant mind there lies a monster
This one just so happened to be her father
See daddy was sick, he'd get a rush by playin touchy touch
And tellin her to keep it hush
It was his seceret way of loving that he needed someone he could trust
Fucked her head up, sayin if Momma was alive she'd be so proud of us
So she'd hide the desire to die
But if you paid close attention you could see the sorrow in her eyes
Walking around in the only real hell
No one would ever think she'd have such a story to tell
Afraid to go home, afraid to talk, afraid of cryin
She was too young to even know why
[Chorus]
And everyday she'd go to the river with a message in a bottle sayin
'Please, God help me I don't wanna live to see tommarow'
Each day she'd scrounge for a tiny shread of hope
Just to wish the bottle would stay afloat
But every single solitary day, the bottle seems to sink
I don't know why but the bottle always sinks
She never sees it happen, but the bottle always sinks
Now only the bottom of the river knows what she really thinks
She made that violin sing with so much pain
You could almost hear her scream through the strange vibrations
What was once sweet and innocent
Is now riding with the phsychotic father
Chose to probe the flowers of the pure and sacred
Her instrument was a rolly tongue
To express the infinite abuse in it's depths
At night the footsteps crept to her door and she'd begin to shake and weap
And with tears rolling down her cheeks she's pretend she was asleep
When the nightmare was over, and the sun dawn is light
She'd retreat to the same place she always did
Rip a page from her diary, and write with all her might
Then send it off into the current, determined to find a way to live
[Chorus]
Being a victim of her daddy's hands for so long
She lost the will to move on
Sick of picking up her violin to hide from what's wrong
Exausted, but stayin strong
She tried to play the bright side, but couldn't bring herself to make
nothing but sad songs
Sick of that sick feeling that stays in her stomach
Sick of waiting for a rescue by someone who found one of her bottles
Sick of being daddy's little seceret
She got up at the crack of day and smashed her violin into pieces
Then proceeded to walk towards the river with a plan
Only this time the diary and bottle was in her hand
Just walk with herself, away from the hell
Not knowing at the river bottom lied all the cries for help
It was weeks before they found her dead body
Some fisherman reeled it from the water
like something from a detective novel
Diagonosis: suicide, stemed from desperation
Was near where she drowned they found about 500 messages in sunken bottles - Track Name: 18 Here For You (mix)
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Lyrics:
Were all born into this river without knowing how to swim
And eventually we learn how to keep this water under our chin
Some times this river is so cold to be in
Freezing my soul, solidifying my skin
Regardless of how far I see, I never see my travels end
Were carried by the current, being driven by the wind
The scenery we pass, we'll never see again
So we store it up as memories and don't let go of them
Were under a spell thinking the river should go straight
We set goals and desires to control our own fate
But all the pain we experience as a result of our expectations
Because it's the rivers nature to twist and turn
The shit can burn
And I know it
I have the same conflict
But I try to sit and flow with this rivers natural process
And sometimes when I watch myself float downstream
I see the beauty of it all, and it feels like a dream
And at that time I appreciate the rivers course
Some call it God, reality, momentum, the force
I stare up at the naked moon, and she stares down at me
Outside false boundaries and (I'll look outward to see)?
The universe is not something separate from yourself
I know you feel alone, but that's why I'm here to help
I know you feel alone, but just look up at the stars
And everything that is out there is what you really are
We gotta learn to see the beauty in each moment of life
Everyone has different paths and we're seeing the light
The world is divided between peasants and kings
But the truth is everybodys looking for the same thing
Now I want you to know
The role you play is part of the whole
Without you it couldn't be, and I mean that with compassion
So if you ever need anything, I mean anything at all
I'm here for you; all you gotta do is ask man
I'm here for you, in the same way that you're here for me
Each person in an intricate piece of infinite
I feel that if you could see what I see
Then we as humanity could be free
I'm here for you, not for any self centered reasons
Because existence is interdependent and all related,
Connected in its different manifestations of one single mind
You ain't isolated from the world even though it feels like that sometimes
I see the hurt when I look into your eyes
How you struggle to hold it and keep it bundled inside
It drives a dull blade deep in my heart; it makes me want to cry
So I offer you a hand to help wash away the rainy skies
I'm running out of words, but I haven't yet made my message clear
So if none of this makes sense, I just want you to know I'm here
As a musician, as a friend, as a teacher, as a student
To grow and realize that everything is in constant movement
Each problem that we face is just a part of this movement
It seems helpless, but if we stick together we'll get through it
And return to the essence from which we've been uprooted
And wake humanity from these illusions
The second you can look into the sky and see your own reflection
You know your headed in the right direction
The river ride ain't always smooth, but with it I live
And everything is perfect, just the way it is
We gotta learn to see the beauty in each moment of life
Everyone has different paths and we're seeing the light
The world is divided between peasants and kings
But the truth is everybodys looking for the same thing
Now I want you to know
The role you play is part of the whole
Without you it couldn't be, and I mean that with compassion
So if you need anything, I mean anything at all
I'm here for you; all you gotta do is ask man
I'm here for you; all you gotta do is ask man
I'm here for you; all you gotta do is ask man - Track Name: 19 Infrared Roses
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Lyrics:
Well I guess this is it, I guess its uh.. time or whatever
So I guess I'll start it like this
And I'll never again be as happy as I was when I was in the 7th grade
Before the guilt of having no goals ate my life away
Each day introduced me to somehting that I hadn't experienced yet
Traded A's for F's to gain the time to experiment with drugs and sex
I'll never forget me and jakes first roses trip together
or the times when we all walked aimlessly through summer weather
with nothing better to do I rode to s.a.and tried to steal a pack of squares
man I miss being a kid with no cares
its the excitement of knowing everything you touch is new
I just wish I couldv'e stopped to cherish the moment while it lasted but
maybe thats the point, the second your smart enough to recognize freedom
your no longer free
you see heaven isn't some place that we go to when we die
It's that split second in life where you actually feel alive
and until the end of time, we chase the memory of that
hoping the future holds something better than the past
so why do I spend my time runnin' away?
when the truth is right here in the mirror inside my dying face
I can waste my energy tryin to reproduce something thats gone
but my childhood is dead, it's time to move on
so what do you call a person thats already past his peak?
Just keep stack in tha sheep you keep counting when you can't go to sleep
Two years out of high school goin on way too deep
tell me again why 7th grade was so brief?
Damn... the curiosity that killed shrodingers cat was the only thing that
kept it alive matter of fact
when life takes your life away how do you get it back?
Like that... like that...
REPEAT - Track Name: 20 Weird Side (mix)
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[Eyedea]
Why they always looking at me, like there's something on my face man
No matter where I go, I'm always feeling out of place
And I know I'm not your regular I got a different taste
Probably 'cause most my life, spent right in my basement
I didn't watch the Super Bowl, don't drink alcohol
Don't carry I.D., don't go to the mall
I'm extra argumentative and really good at fast talk
I can't dance or sing but I can rap my ass off
Hey my voice is unique, I'll leave it at that
But what other rapper you know, has the ideas I have
And it ain't like the skin color really is significant
Puts you in a category of part ass part
Idiot but I don't try to fit in
My life's like a novel of science-fiction
My mission is to get into your mind, and make you listen and
Rewind what you were missin', everytime that you insisting to be blind
I paint a picture with the rhyme and climb the instrument
I'll hide behind a picket fence, slash a little wickedness and I
Win at this so you better better me
I always smile in public if I got a lot of energy
Don't go to the doctor, I got my own remedies
Oh and I almost forgot I got a really good memory
[Chorus]
I know a lot of people that'll tell you that they hate me
cause they know I bring out the weird side
Some say I'm a genius others say that I'm crazy
but they all say I'm a little on the weird side
It ain't like I can help it, it's the way I was raised
so I'm living every minute on the weird side
Here's a ticket for the train, pay a visit to my brain
If you wanna know about the weird side
It goes dee-dee-da, dee-dee-da, doo-doo-do, doo-doo-do
Da dee-dee-da, dee-dee-da, doo-doo-do, doo-doo-do
[Eyedea]
I only write with a certain type of pen, chameleon
Switching crummy it's ya intraversin' loud mouths
First thing I do after I buy a CD is open it up
and see if my name's in the shout outs
I read books, I know the inclono mechanics
Psychology, philosophy, peyote and acid
I like Jimi Hendrix more than any rap shit
And my favorite movie's Dr. StrangeLove, that's a classic
Never had a fist fight, got knocked out one time
Stupid motherfucker thought peace was a gang sign
Yo I never liked the circus I was too afraid of clowns
20 years in the same city still don't know my way around
And still get lost inside of my thoughts
Sayin dumb jokes just to hear myself talk
Yeah I know my clothes probably need to be washed
But I like em' and if I didn't I would take em' off
[Chorus]
I know a lot of people that'll tell you that they hate me
cause they know I bring out the weird side
Some say I'm a genius others say that I'm crazy
but they all say I'm a little on the weird side
It ain't like I can help it, it's the way I was raised
so I'm living every minute on the weird side
Here's a ticket for the train, pay a visit to my brain
If you wanna know about the weird side
It goes dee-dee-da, dee-dee-da, doo-doo-do, doo-doo-do
Da dee-dee-da, dee-dee-da, doo-doo-do, doo-doo-do
Dee-dee-da, dee-dee-da, doo-doo-do, doo-doo-do
Da dee-dee-da, dee-dee-da, doo-doo-do, doo-doo-do
[Eyedea]
I'm not accepted by any certain group or people
I'm a walking talking freak-show and by now you know my steelo
Everybody's weird, you know that's true
I bet you even got a little bit of weirdness in you
My lyrics are due to depression, and an essence impression, unprecedented
Identity, representin' the Midwest I guess I'm just ahead of my time
Blame my pedigree, I'm telling you a tale of the time, embellish the melody
Who are you to say I got a few loose screws?
Do the tools humans use can ever measure my texture
Extra, extra read all about it Eyedea's an extraterrestrial don't let him
touch you or even sit next to you
Hey I dont write, so you're wrong and that makes me right
Song after song, night after night
Gonna spit my words into the mic
And the crowd reacts nice if it's something that they like
Now is that so strange to want the attention
Think I should change man save your suggestions
I swear someday I'm gonna be somebody's hero
But until that day I'm just another fuckin' weirdo - Track Name: 21 Kept (mix)
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Lyrics:
I'm a b-boy
That's the best way to define me
Born in '81, been rhymin' since the early 90's
And I don't plan on stoppin' any time soon
That's why fools try to be down with my crew
What you recitin' feeble chatter (?), either that or beatin' off
Peace to no-name breathin' patterns that'll leave 'em lost
I keep a choke-chain on the people's thoughts
Teach the whole game how to read between the chalk
Okay, we so crazy, don't play me, just pay me you babies
I break teeth on fake freaks (?), and maybe, just maybe, you might live
That's solely dependent on you mic skills
You rap slowly homie, no regard for what's ill
Still I hope you're not the nicest of you teammates
I'm your worst nightmare, you're like a whack MC's dream date
A walking target, plus an awful artist, what you talk is often fucking garbage
The public regrets the fact they have to hear your music
What you call spittin' looks more like involuntary droolin'
Say I'm stupid for entertainin' rumors but I heard you give your favorite producer head in trade for his creative juices
We makin' music, just tryna put the fun back in
Turntablism, lyricism, ain't no gun packin'
It's hard to swallow, even my simple sing(?)
So bitin's not recommended by 9 out of 10 dentists
I step on snakes any yes I make a mess on tape cassettes with
My brother, ain't no other quite like my mellow, my man
So Abilities, lemme hear you make some funky music with your hands
Wall lights(?), solo, drums and vocals
Guaranteed to put your attention span in a choke-hold
PEACE
We just representin' for the hip-hoppers world-wide, MC's, DJ's, b-boys, graff-writers, everybody in the house
Yeah, Blueprint in the house, uh-huh
Daylight in the house, uh-huh
E-Wok in the house, yeah
Mr. Dibbs in the house, uh-huh
X-Cal in the house, uh
Abomination's in the house, uh
Headshot's in the house, yeah
Rhymesayers and we out, PEACE - Track Name: 22 Shout Outs
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Lyrics:
(continued from Kept) - Track Name: 23 On This I Stand (mix)
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Lyrics:
On this I stand
Two sets of footprints placed ahead of the dirt softened from tear drops
And overlooking the earth as the son of the moon
protected by a forcefield of pure thought.. On this I stand
A rally of unemployed disgruntled words spawned from long journeys through somewhere
somewhere that only causes me pain as I strain my soul crammin it with (light?)
so I could bring some there.
I bleed the blood of a cold stone that roams without a shadow
I'm only deep enough to realize that I'm shallow
My head I keep it up but its hard to keep it straight
when you don't believe in love,
and you just cant cope with hate
Metal rust, leaves turn into dust,
as the difference between love and lust clarifies as trust
if you only had an hour to sum your whole life up
would you spend that hour sayin that an hour ain't enough
I've escaped the shell that bound me to cowardness
now I'm faithful to the wind but compared to it I'm powerless
the first step was made, and it was a fair accomplishment
the pond was sittin still, so I threw a rock in it
and as my reflection rippled it all became clear
the seasons always change so there's no reason for fear
we made an autobiography of our pivotal years
its all I got and I'm giving it you because I care
See, a lot of the time humans as artists exist in a self-projected state of falsehood
were either too close to our image to stay objective in our perception,
or too far away to be subjective in any matter
this only widens the void in social conformity
introduced to our souls at birth and so I write.
I don't write without the intention of objectivity
or attention on the image
but only as an omni directional bridge
between the several (floating, tunnel structured?)
realities present in comprable space and time.
see I don't write for the future,
I write about the future, for the present
I write with my past, about the future, for the present.
On this I stand
The oasis of a limbo adjacent to my generation, facing out the window
waiting for some ventilation, patient while the wind blows
graceful in its demonstration, overall innovation.
On this I stand
A fountain of youth sovereignty, (found in?) 1000 syllables more than a pound of flesh
deep breath of achievement, a dream and a wake up call
another haul of the quest.
On this I stand
Another loved civilization.
On this I stand
The purity of creation.
On this I stand
A paradigm for self.
On this I stand
I thank you for your help.
On this I stand
My first born child.
On this I stand
Something for now.
On this I stand
Life, love, death and hate.
On this I stand
An album, glad you could relate. Peace... - Track Name: 24 This Story (mix)
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Lyrics:
When I was young I was a single-celled omeba
Then I learned how to go to war over ideas
Now im into strippin mother earth of the resources
Waiting for the day that today is considered pre-historic
Standing on my last limb
Survived by a naked rush
This story was written in my genetic code
x4
I dont want to, but if i have to ill make a big mistake
Theres no judge or jury when your looking adrenaline in the face
Years of refinement to make this make this machine
Im gonna use it to the best of my ability
My body as my armor will protect my brain from fusing
even though it still secretes its poisonous power I almost lose it
Vomit enducing, deluded in the blood
Cuz if I ever got a full blast the rush would be too much
Well you could hear the break in his grown-up voice
You can feel the quiver when you shake his hand
We can give or take, its noone elses choice
One day you have to quit running and take a stand
And all the flags at half mass
Part heavy heart, part pain in the ass
I was trained not the think, just react
Sometimes when a person goes that far
They're never coming back
Maybe we'll evolve to a point where fear as an experience
is no longer instinctual but rather an emotion we use
When ripped of understanding of higher
human ancestors killed each other when we could have loved each other
One day we'll be holding hands instead of grudges
We'll eliminate our territorial circuits and noble ???
One day we'll be holding hands instead of M-16's
Tell then every human being is controlled by the fight. - Track Name: 26 Act Right (Albee Yap Remix)
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Lyrics:
Ay yo Abilities man
I got a lil' somethin' I gotta get off my chest right quick
Aight, dig this man
I'm sick of all these punk motherfuckas in this rap game, you know what I'm sayin'?
I'm sayin' these fools steppin' up to us knowin' they shit is straight gaabage, you know what I'm talkin' about
E & A don't play that shit man
Aight, check it out
[Verse 1]
It's like we walk into the place and instantly we're surrounded
The king pin, big shots of this underground shit
In less than a 'sec, Abilities is at the bar
Half these cats don't even know who we are, but we still act like stars
Guess that coulda been tight, I wasn't listenin'
I was peepin' out some new lyrics my man Carnage was kickin'
[Fast lyrics]
Now back to the subject of me not givin' a damn about you
This is my world, it just so happens that you live in it too
But that don't mean I gotta tolerate your talk
There's a thousand other people in this room that'd probly love to hear your thoughts
But while you're uncomfortably ridin' my tip, Abilities is upstairs stealin' your chick
You want props, stop runnin' your mouth
Just give a pound, buy a CD and, (?) we out
Yo, you need to take a few steps back
Your DJ can't scratch and your MC can't rap
You all up in my face and we just came here to max
Man you stupid motherfuckers need to learn how to act
[Weird voice]
Ay yo, ain't that that Eyedea kid?
Talkin' all that crazy
Man I'm 'bout to hyperbolate this fool
You can't see me
[Verse 2]
Ever since we started winnin' battles and travelin' 'cross the land
Fools think if they can beat you they can be you and
They wanna test, so they step, not knowin' Eyedea's rep
To leave 'em swept, the contest always ends like this
[Battling]
Man these kids get on my nerves, but I can't pretend I hate 'em
'Cuz whack MC's is such a great source of entertainment
Me and Abilities watched the Blaze Battle for like a year
"Yo this kid out there, ain't got nothin' to do"
It's funny, sometimes kids are so whack with the rappin' instead of rappin' back I just wind up laughin' like
Yo, you need to take a couple steps back, your partner can't scratch and your cousin can't rap
You all up in my face and we just came here to max
Man you stupid motherfuckers need to learn how to act
[Girl]
Oh, my, God
Eyedea & Abilities, you guys are so phat, my boyfriend loves you guys so much
You know what?
Oh my God, you should sign my tits, oh great
[Verse 3]
You know we love to see y'all at the shows, but this is dedicated to the one someone might call a "ho"
All I gotta do is wink to get you back to my hotel
I can't respect a person that don't respect themselves
You're that one girl I went to high school with
Back then you treated me like I wasn't shit
You say if I give you a free CD you'll show me your tits
You get the CD for 10 bucks like everyone else you stupid "biatch"
I don't care if you just broke up with your boyfriend
I ain't tryna go where every other rapper's been
If I was to kick it all my boys would clown
So I could "never hold ya, can't hold ya, won't hold ya down"
Look, all ya gotta do is learn some manners
Women and men
DJ's and rappers
There's nothing more to say, this meeting is adjourned, and if you don't know by now
"I think it's time you learn" - Track Name: 28 Star Destroyer (mix)
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Lyrics:
[Xzibit] "Never no super star, I'm more like a planet"
[Eyedea]
Just mail me your titles now and save the public embarrassment
You never even battled how the fuck can you arrogant
No wonder why you're screamin' to the night it seems like no one's listening
Cause you're just one tiny beam of light in this whole solar system
Your creation is a fallacy to rap
Didn't calculate your mass before your galaxy collapsed
Comin' harder for ya some heartless voyager
Star destroyin' soldiers killin' constellations bringin' realness back
Yeah, you motherfuckers can't apologize
On the table to the mic, you choose how you die
I never came across a rapper that I'm scared of
Cause ain't an emcee in this universe I can't tear up
I'm really iller than anybody, buddy I'll bloody your body
Your cruddy thoughts are probably as soft as silly puddy
I'm in a different dimension when rockin' a drum beat
Not even a star's gravitational pull can touch me
And that goes for you and whoever you stand in space with
Man you're wasted, light years behind the standard basics
Face it you ain't shit in this game
End your career the way it started, with a Big Bang
[Xzibit] "Never no super star, I'm more like a planet"
[E:] "That's that new Star Destroyer cut I was tellin' you about" - Track Name: 29 Void - External Theory (mix)
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Lyrics:
Days turn into years. "A" students turn into dropouts
Seeing the world from a creative angle turns into seeing it from a couch
Orgasms become lifetimes. Bong hits turn into white lines
A face becomes a dartboard and cardboard becomes a house
Boys turn into men. Enemies become your friends
Losing turns into winning and the beginning becomes the end
Words turn into magic. Rewind becomes a habit
Rabbits become vultures and cultures become trends
A party becomes a funeral. Sunlight turns into cancer
The rain turns beautiful. An unusual question becomes an answer
Happiness becomes a cataract. A sip turns into a six-pack
And Earth turns into Mars as my album becomes a standard
A hero becomes a statistic. A lost soul enlisted
The potholes are lifted as the hot coals leave you blistered
A sickness becomes a teardrop. A cup of coffee becomes a long day
Your best friend's guidance becomes the wrong way
As the song plays my voice becomes the past, present, and future
Transportation becomes pollution as humans become computers
Time becomes space. Minds become waste
And a person becomes less interested when a mic becomes an instrument
An age turns into a nightmare. Love becomes hate
The nine becomes a zero and every country becomes one state
All you thought you knew was just a foolish assumption
Yes, everything is something. But something is nothing - Track Name: 31 Read Wiped in Blue (mix)
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Lyrics:
I never knew my mom, once I was born she was dead
She never wanted me. At least that's what my dad said
He said she was polluted, ignorant, uncivilized
And that was roughly the outline of what he beat into my head
I grew up in a house with more rooms than I could count
No siblings, just strangers always moving in and out
My dad hated all our neighbors
Had they stepped on his prophets they'd be finished
'Cause getting his is what he was about
Ever since his birth, he was a nuisance to humanity
I wish he died instead of mom. Maybe then I'd love family
But I'd smile at pops, concealing that feeling of, "I hate you."
Each day he'd wear the same three colors, with the same suit
And mother would come to me when I would close my eyes and sink
To the thought of her beautiful voice, and the lullabies she'd sing
'Til I was sound asleep. Then I'd awake and she'd be gone
My whole life, my soul echoed her songs
I guess the grass is always greener on the other side
And intangible experience structures one leviathan
From the Koran to leprechauns
Since when did America fall in between Lebanon and Ireland?
[chorus x 2]
Mamma was a lullaby, Daddy was a melting pot
Angel in my father's eyes, only 'cause it helps him rot
Freedom screams through a sky, wounded by a culture shock
Mamma was a lullaby, Daddy was a melting pot
His philosophy was to be up, you gotta push someone down
That was all I knew 'cause that was all I was around
I found the flaws in his methods from the cause in myself
Father Diablo: Only an uncle to every one else
He taught me how to talk without looking in your eyes
Gave me a nine to five, made me ignore the lullabies
A puddle of the dried tears shade me colorless
And categorize me as a baby failing to realize how far away his mother is
Our relationship hovered with strength, even though it's invisible
Hard to quit hearing her poetry. Piercing emotions leak
With the notes she hits I float, defying gravitation
The only mom I have is in my imagination. So it goes
[chorus]
One day daddy's gonna die, choking on the gun he bought
And when that day comes I shall return to my mother
And we'll walk hand in hand straight to heaven
And when the clouds part, I'll tell her that I love her
And she'll accept with an open heart. No question
Unless dad was right, and she really was a monster
Maybe her silhouette reflects the hell of his own childhood
Maybe she's so insane, no one cared to help
But if nothing else on this earth could mend her spirit, I bet my smile could
The volumes of her songs decreased the older that I grew
Daddy became my only influence of attitude
Now I'm robotically imperialistic, and careless of people
A trait inherited by my parent's omnipotent ego
His symbol's the eagle, but his child isn't free
You'll see no sign around my neck saying I'm proud to be me
I'm not grown up, the concept of adulthood is dead
He left scars on my back when my notebook was read
I guess the grass is always greener on the other side
And intangible experience structures one leviathan
From the Koran to leprechauns
Since when did America fall in between Lebanon and Ireland?
[chorus]
Daddy don't think that I forgot - Track Name: 33 Liquid Sovereignty (mix)
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Lyrics:
[Chorus x 2]
Rain
Everyone wants to get out of the rain
Wants to be free, wants to see no more pan
We're guaranteed that the season will change
'Till then, I'm keeping sunshine on my brain
When the drops hit my head they leave a stain
Everyone wants to get out of the rain
We cannot avoid nature's bleeding vein
But I smile while it trickles down the rain
Harvested love only comes after rain
Even though it brings overwhelming strain
It falls from all skies so I can't complain
Without it, our growth would not be the same
Most people like to have someone to blame
But it falls randomly, not taking aim
It makes up one half of the yin and yang
Without the water, you can't have the flame
Without the water, you can't have the flame
Some are content holding ground in their game
But when my soul steps to exit this frame
I will be reincarnated as
[Chorus]
Rain
Harvested thought only comes after rain
Artists may talk and give it different names
When they appear wet, they may feel ashamed
So they don't walk but instead take the train
And when that ride stops they notice the strange
Sense of degeneration they've obtained
While the world evolves, they stand and turn lame
Storm is prerequisite to mental gain
Storm is prerequisite to mental gain
Philosophy's life
That's simple and plain
Poets play with words to keep themselves sane
You do your thing while the clouds pour the
[Chorus]
Harvested skill only comes after rain
Architects build under sun, so they claim
But when the puddles decided to hang
Is when their hands sketched the plans that remained
Every man secretly hopes he can tame
The beast he fears most 'cause it can't be slain
Towering, gray faces laugh so deranged
One day we all will break free from their chains
One day we all will break free from their chains
And rise towards the sun with good health sustained
It's almost impossible to explain
But I owe all my success to the
[Chorus] - Track Name: 35 Music Music (mix)
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Lyrics:
I'll be writing till I'm dead or maybe till I'm alive
All the emptiness I've bled has only helped me survive
Something melted inside when the tones hit my pulse
And stifled the idle eagerness to grow into my clothes
No one that I know is any longer good at actin'
Like they comprehend the motive uncoated to feed the corroded passion
Actually needs to stay eye level with the rest
That's the least I deserve for the love that I've shed
I've trudged through the sediment in search of the rhythm
Dove soul first to bathe nude in its abyss
Paid dues and made music my religion
Now I listen, close my eyes, and forget I even exist
I sing a bastard's tune, inspired by the noise
The ship made before it sank and was finally destroyed
I flaunt the grin of a man made for disguising a boy
Who tried to avoid showing the cry in his voice
But there's something special about the notes that he hears
Those scales are redemption, unraveling repressed memories
And when he breathes, a new energy enters and consumes him
To heal his wounds and unseal his doom
If only I could make you understand
But words are just words so I can't
The universe's deepest art form keeps my heart warm with influence
I tell ya
Ain't nothing quite as beautiful as Music
To be an angel, you gotta earn your wings
To control your own, you gotta burn your strings
To hit blackjack, you gotta turn a king
But to live forever, all you gotta do is learn to sing
I get a pleasure that's inevitably immeasurable
And I won't let it be rejected by no man
Why does it have to be so damn difficult
To live in the frame of a game that will slit your throat?
But I've dug in the mud in search of the drum
Dove soul first to bathe nude in its abyss
Stayed true to the music, now my favorite thing to do is
Close my eyes and forget that I even exist
I hold this fistful of degenerate ideas
For every genius that was murdered in the name of Jesus
Still deaf to the bells that claimed to free us
But I pay homage to my melody ‘cause she's the sweetest
The core of our spirit is naked
The form of its lyrics are sacred
Blanketed by the original sound of the inner vibrations
I'm floating on the soft clouds of positive creation
See, I can look at a painting and admire the colors
Or appreciate any type of art that I discover
But what I dig's invisible
It's my teacher and I'm its student
I tell ya
Ain't nothing quite as beautiful as Music - Track Name: 37 On a Clear Day (mix)
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Lyrics:
[Chorus]
Clear
I can see for miles
Clear
I can be myself
Clear
I can sit in my place
Clear
I'm not part of this race
Clear
I'm not in this alone
Clear
I got freedom to roam
CLear
I can sit in my place
Clear
I withdraw from the race
Excuse me,
but theres so much here for you to touch
and theres nothing I can do to make you give a fuck
sometimes everything aint enough
when the eyes are tired from wearing the tires handcuffs
If i was content sitting i wouldn't need to stand up
why am i living if i can't love?
wanna scream at the top of my bleeding lungs
never meant to break your trust
just wanted to wake you up
Once before I left a dispersal to search for clarity
either they're scared of me or laughing hysterically
Im just a parody
of something that apparently was never properly prepared to bleed
oh how do i wish that i never learned to cry
when your only reply is waving your hands from side to side
Im lost, cause im my own tour guide
and if i ever talked to myself I'd probably tell lies
but for now i sit in this disfigured toadstool
showing the face of a child who only smiles because hes told to
sometimes I look to me for the answers
and I dont know what to do
Im probably just as confused as you
[Chorus]
The cord sprung a leak - Track Name: 39 Void Internal Theory (mix)
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Lyrics:
Silence is what we all need for a minute
Dyin' is what we want to avoid while we're livin'
Life and tryin' to make some noise
The screams sort of seem like we're cryin'
Reaching towards our dreams, I offer an exhausted sigh
And rhymin' keeps the posture of my back in fair condition
But why in the world do I do this music when so few people listen?
Climbin' a mountain that might eventually crumble
It's a bumpy ride into that light side of life where no one goes
Violence saturates our surroundings, my heart is pounding
I am one of the strong that noticed the sirens sounding
Strivin' to wake you up, so we can grow to maturity
While we're all buyin' the government's repent from social security
Wine and cigarettes promote good life, bad health and tax
I am one of the strong, but also in the same trap
Exercisin' my brain
Realizin' that pain will be arrivin'
If I dive into the cesspool of my mind
So I'm rewindin' the recorded version of my conscience repeatedly
Not easily blinded
Nor do I find it hard to ignore you weakling's weep
I shine with this terrific, twisted piece of metal
Strangely changing climate as they increase the level
I said I wouldn't sign shit, 'cause I don't want to meet the devil
But I lost my mind, and I'm tryin' to find it in the dimension of space
between bass and treble
Shattered is my existence, in so many pieces I can't count
Chatter is the substance that comes from most people's mouth
Matter is what you don't to me, he don't to she, we don't to we
But hopefully we can gather together and figure out what life's about
Patterns of emotion change shape from different situations
Lanterns shed light on the dark side of imagination
Scattered is good and evil, through various people and areas of the ego
But we know we can be peaceful with the right participation
Now batters, stay behind the base and get ready for the pitch
Rappers mold their soul into plastic and get filthy rich
The ladder to paradise is infested with parasites
And if you don't ride in the carriage right, you would swear that life's a bitch
[Refrain x6]
Nothing gets you nowhere
But everything gets you somewhere
One pair of shoes is great compared to two feet tryin' to run bare - Track Name: 41 Forget Me feat. Slug (mix)
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Lyrics:
[Eyedea]
Would you believe there's only four more people in the world
And when you're not looking they change masks
Somewhere over the rainbow it's the same
Instead of needle infested train tracks
No matter how fast you run from the eye you hate
There is no escape (There is no escape)
So I wait for the heaven that I seek
Which makes everything insignificant differences
Innocence intendance the vision amongst religion
Visioning innovative criticisms are the state of mind we're living
Time is ticking
If you listen to the sign that wisdom efficiantly spreads
Sing a song that officially deadens the mission
They cling on the friction
I stand stiff in this position
Plans shift
Cause to me your man is in an issue of your ego tissue
Explicit to the point of non-existance
And life in the past is your only interest
I used to build forts in the backyard to hide from the daytime
Missing all the beauty of the sunshine
It's my fault
But I blame the world to a small degree
I've never seen the sky cause I been too scared it would fall on me
So what? You're mad cause I don't want to talk?
But you'd be even more pissed off if I told you what i really thought
So just walk away (just walk away)
You're better off never caring what I say (never caring what I say)
[Chorus][Eyedea]
I been a lot of places and I've seen a lot of faces
I don't miss none of them and they don't miss me
Fell in love with sensation
Now I'm my own mental patient
But that's the price you pay if you want to live free
Kill my dedication
Put me on your medication
Drop me off in space and never come to get me
Nothing that I say has ever been that amazing
So when I die do me a favor and forget me (forget me.. x7)
[Slug]
Well
Something in the air make me not want to care
Let 'em stare untill I'm riding on an empty spare
Follow the vein straight
As it drapes across the landscape and the sand and the lake
Off the beaten path
Learn the secret math
Keeping the laugh, smug
Too deep in the back of luck
Happy as fuck
But nobody's convinced
Play daddy to the love and try to drop a couple hints
Ever since I came to learn all the right turns
I was cursed with the cigarette burns and the lost words
Found inspiration inside your misery
Always trying to take an inch
More than what they're giving me
Dear God
Let me die on the rich people's lawns
Because I'm not so sure they're gonna learn my songs
Every morning he repeats that same shit
Spends the day trying to be famous
Well another day, shot
And I'm thinking this aquarium is deeper than the last one
My castle was never made of sand
It's one big aluminum can
The chateau of the damned
The shadow of the man you pretend you are
Had a rough thought that got caught and went too far
If I did have a car I'd go broke from the gas
On the shoulder of the road
As you roll past
[Chorus][Eyedea]
I been a lot of places and I've seen a lot of faces
I don't miss none of them and they don't miss me
Fell in love with sensation
Now I'm high on mental piation
But that's the price you pay if you want to live free
Kill my dedication
Put me on your medication
Drop me off in space and never come to get me
Nothing that I say has ever been that amazing
So when I die do me a favor and forget me (forget me.. x7) - Track Name: 43 Step by Step
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Lyrics:
I got a little story to tell
See it was September 1st, 1999, the day of my death
My back was on the cold concrete as I take my last breath
Saw my body laying on the ground as my soul hovered above me
Damn Eyedea you was a good lookin' cat
But anyway another day at 18 years of age
Step in heaven's gate anxious to see what God got to say
Maybe he'll give me a gift for always saying my prayers
But he might send me downstairs for last year's love affair
Well who cares
You know right now it's all a mystery
I mean I'll find out when I get there
Until then I can't let it get to me
I'm keepin' my cool
Besides everybody dies
I'll just follow the white light like the do in the movies
It seems like I was went by and I'm still travelin
Right towards the brightness
Now this ain't heaven of hell
This realm is lifeless
And I hate to say it
But this wild goose chase had me bored
No directions, no clues, no idea what I was in for
But forward I kept floating
And then a quick flash the lights split directly in half
And created a forked path
Representing each side is an angel
Now whats the task I have to untangle to meet the big man in charge I ask
And one on the right of me says one of us always lies and one that always tells the truth
Ask the right one the right question he'll direct you to heaven
If ask the wrong one son, farwell you going straight to well....
Y'all get the picture
The one on my left told me not to listen to his fibs
He said it ain't that complicated to find out where god lives
He told me to follow his path
and tell god that he said hi
Then the one on my right jumped in and told me not to believe his lies
and I'm like Jesus Fucking Christ
I didn't care much for life
But I've tried to stay alive forever if I knew this is what death was like
I was never good at problem solving especially in emergencies
I get a tad bit nervous when concerned with burning for eternity
but anyway I asked them which one lied and they pointed at each other
Thinking I'd had it I asked the name of my mother
One said he don't know the other said he know but he can't tell me
God damn this is going to be hard
So I asked 30 questions and I still wasn't sure
but being me I gave those pricks a few good words
Frustrated with it all
I turned my back to the angels and when I walked away to my surprise
I found myself in heaven
(Ya know I'm saying
Kinda just turned around from the whole situation
Rejecting everything that was going on
Thats how I walked into heaven)
I Walked away, walked away, walked straight into heaven...
I Walked away, walked away, walked straight into heaven... - Track Name: 45 Powdered Water Too Pt 1 (mix)
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Lyrics:
If someone grew up in a cubicle as Plato once suggested
They would only know the cubicle and not the world outside it
And they wouldn't view the cubicle as something geometric
We only know it's a cubicle because we live outside it
Now the one inside the cubicle can't comprehend his measurements
Because measurements are models made up for and by observers
Relative to their position on the outside of the cubicle
Though understand objectively so they can study further
If I grew up in a cubicle the walls are in my universe
I have no knowledge of the entirety like the outsiders do
If you follow what I say and can swallow the powdered water
Close your eyes and open your minds, this one's for you
And the brain equals a cubicle we'll never think outside it
Now inside wanna try to tie a diagram to modify them
I'm there as a hybrid of a body of a pirate
Of a soul that can fly without control
Realizing the brain ticks at six billion signals per second
And most of which are hidden and not given to the senses
Whether to do a few futile primitive tools to perception
livin in a universal pool of first hand deception
The mind's job is to recieve the signals
And block out the ones that don't coincide with imprinted symbols
That way the information you obtained is recognized
Reality is thinkable and comparable to space and time
It makes a map of the territory that gives us
The topic of the Copenhagen interpretation of modern quantum
Physics which states we dont know the meal
We only know the menu that our brains tell us is real
We don't know the rules of our heads
From inside these cubicles we cant see the truth
No one really knows exactly what happens when we think
Therefore we can never really ever know anything
This is the consciousness revolution
You got the right to think
Don't think about it just do it
(repeats stanza til fade out) - Track Name: 46 The Dive Pt 2 (mix)
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Lyrics:
.....You never fall if you never fight
You found yourself fall into madness
The best thing you ever did was let go
[x2]
I found myself fall into madness
The best thing I ever did was let go
[x2]
See, life is a play that we're always acting out
Without ever seeing it from the writer's or audience's point of view
When we reach infinity, we become the writers and the actors and the audience at the exact same time
So here you are
And now you understand
You always were here
That's why you always ran
But you can only run away for so long
Before you catch up with yourself and become part of the song
I'd like to welcome you to the heaven you've created
I tell the truth this is the wisdom of the ancients
Holding on to something contradicts our being, so fly free
Maybe I had to go crazy to get where I am
I felt myself slipping away and I let myself fall
Gotta lose your mind before you find it
And when you finally find it you find out you never lost it at all
There's a natural flow
That's attached to your soul
It don't ask you to go
It just gradually pulls
It's always now and you're never not you
So follow yourself
'cause if nothing else, your existence is true
Have you ever felt yourself slipping away?
I am, I mean, I was slipping away
But no matter what I am I'm me
And I know me so I'm ok
Have you ever felt yourself slipping away?
You are, I mean, you were slipping away
But no matter what you are you're you
And you know you so you're ok
I'm not a poet or a communist, a comet, or a star
You're not a genius or a prophet you just are
I'm not insane 'cause I have no need for my sanity
It's just another chain that keeps me from reality
Reality is mine; to play with and mold
The best thing I ever did was let go
So let go of the models
Transcend the physical mind
And peacefully become part of the whole
The walls came tumbling down
But this time it was for keeps
I've been running around
Looking for my feet
Now they're part of the ground
And make the ground complete
Live in the now and forever be at peace
Live in the now, don't stray away from the cycle
I'm one with the universe
One with the life flow
When you know that that which is below is above
The fear you once had will become love (feel the love)
Have you ever felt yourself slipping away?
I am, I mean, I was slipping away
But no matter what I am I'm me
And I know me so I'm ok
Have you ever felt yourself slipping away?
You are, I mean, you were slipping away
But no matter what you are you're you
And you know you so you're ok
It starts out with a question:
How much of it is real?
Now all is irrelevant outside of this ordeal
Don't worry about explainin' it
There ain't no human language
That can actually describe exactly how you feel
Now I see clear through external distractions
Piece by piece it comes together
So I laugh and I smile
In the beginning it was deranged
But I guess all things come to pass, after awhile
If madness could have a picture face how would it look?
Like step one to becoming the contents of your own book
Right where you are right now is where you're gonna stay
And as long as you're always moving with yourself
You'll never slip away... - Track Name: 50 Now (mix)
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Lyrics:
were here to
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now
we see through
repetitive etiquette and the highly unoriginal
were here to
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now
they will lose
check it out now, check it out now
this is a necessary change from the grim simple and plain
gonna exercise that brain to break the chain pain is a part of gain
no need to explain
we innovate to generate an intricately interwoven tapestry
of musical and ethical epiphanies
the interest is minimal
im on an awsome mission with an angel
that can take it all the way to where the sun is
just like a runner loving running
tryina turn it into a simple symphony
simple sentiment adrenaline is coming back
im in the innercity, where i gotta be a superstar
id rather be a galaxy
but how you see is so dependent on the medicine the rhetoric
and how at any second you think you could sit on the brink of this
world is all asleep and i have no apologies
i breathe
keep my sight on what we ride on
let bygones be bygones
the migraines dont sidetrack
my final destination nothing rivals predetermination
to exterminate the germination
of a nation that accepts anything thats thrown in its fat face
cause when theres nothing left
theres no more point to the rat race
we dont waste a minute of the day
dont be offended what im saying
trying to send it all way to another stage
a creative alternator rated and greater
the crazy maniac mellodies end up all up in your face wait
success aint only based on self esteem
it takes a sense to differentiate between
whats yours and someone elses dreams
i felt the screams climbing up my cold spine
saying nows the time to put in all the energy
to get rid of the enemy... i said it so..
were here to
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now
we see through
repetitive etiquette and the highly unoriginal
were here to
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now
they will lose
Cuz music aint good if it got style
sick of the same old thing
free us and touch what we cant see
twist that knife and watch him bleed
lost inside its way too deep
someone choke me
help me breathe
with nothin but space
in front of my face
i'm no longer runnin in place
